Evet, Helene cad\u0131s\u0131, yeni bir kalbe keman \u00e7ekmi\u015fti. Kalbin kime ait olmas\u0131 ne if\u00e2de eder, zafer \u015feytan\u0131n olduktan sonra… Christopher Marlowe’da ma\u011fdur, Doktor Faust, Goethe’de sadece Faust. Her iki toy a\u015f\u0131k\u0131n ma’\u015fuk\u00e2s\u0131 da Hellenizm Mel\u00eekesi de\u011fil mi? \u015eeytan ayn\u0131 \u015feytan, ama anlayan kim? Evvelki g\u00fcn Truva \u00f6n\u00fcnde tahta at, d\u00fcn bat\u0131y\u0131 yutan bir dev, bug\u00fcn b\u00fct\u00fcn bir medeniyet enkaz\u0131 \u00fczerine oturmu\u015f ejderha. \u00dcmitlerimizle beraber duyarl\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 da al\u0131p g\u00f6t\u00fcren bir ejderha…<\/p>\n

Bat\u0131daki kayna\u015fmadan, y\u0131k\u0131l\u0131\u015ftan bize ne; ‘\u00e2b-\u0131 p\u00e2k’e ne zarar vakvaka-i kurba\u011fadan?’ diyecekler \u00e7\u0131kabilir. Ama, i\u015f, hi\u00e7 de \u00f6yle olmad\u0131. Oradaki sars\u0131nt\u0131, bizi de yerle bir etti. Setler y\u0131k\u0131ld\u0131; k\u00f6pr\u00fcler \u00e7\u00f6kt\u00fc; sular peri\u015fan oldu. C\u00e2mi de gitti, mihrab\u0131 da… Bu k\u0131z\u0131l k\u0131yametin d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda kalamad\u0131k… Ke\u015fke kalabilseydik. As\u0131rlar boyu geli\u015ftirdi\u011fimiz, olgunla\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z topyek\u00fcn k\u0131ymetlerimizle, bu b\u00fcy\u00fck vakuma muk\u00e2vemet edemedik ve yutulduk. Yutulduk ama, kesen, bi\u00e7en, \u00e7i\u011fneyen kendi di\u015flerimiz oldu.<\/p>\n

Sonra, y\u0131llarca a\u011flay\u0131p n\u00e2l\u00e2n olduk, ‘siri\u015fk-i \u00e7e\u015fmimiz’ [1] \u00e7a\u011flayanlardan farks\u0131z ak\u0131p gitti… Eski h\u00e2limize, yitirdi\u011fimiz ikb\u00e2limize, anadan babadan yetimler gibi a\u011flad\u0131k. Dost vefaya yana\u015fm\u0131yor, d\u00fc\u015fman cefadan doymuyor; talih zebun, bizler bitik, inledik durduk. \u00dcst\u00fcm\u00fczde en\u00eenden bir bulut, \u00e7evremizde feryaddan bir l\u00fccce [2].<\/p>\n

‘Git vatan! K\u00e2’be’de siyaha b\u00fcr\u00fcn!
\nBir kolunu Ravza-i Neb\u00eeye uzat!
\nBirini Kerbel\u00e2’da Me\u015fhed’e at!
\nK\u00e2inat’a o hey’etinle g\u00f6r\u00fcn!’<\/strong> Nam\u0131k Kemal<\/p>\n

deyip gecelere dert d\u00f6k\u00fcp inledik, feryaddan \u015fekv\u00e2larla bir y\u00fcce derg\u00e2ha ‘arz-\u0131 h\u00e2l’ eyledik. Evet, her \u015feyin sahibine bel ba\u011flay\u0131p, bacak kadar h\u00e2limizle minare kadar \u00fcm\u00eetler arkas\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fck, \u015f\u00eer-i jiyan’\u0131n [3] etrafa ‘savulun’ diyece\u011fi g\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00fcmitleriyle. \u0130nan\u0131yorduk \u00fcmidimize fer verene, dizimize derman getirene; milletimize, insan\u0131m\u0131za… Kalbimize indirdi\u011fimiz her m\u0131zrabda iyimserli\u011fin na\u011fmelerini duyuyor, g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn \u00f6n\u00fcnde dirili\u015fimizi kutlayan \u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131n yan\u0131p s\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6r\u00fcyorduk.<\/p>\n

‘\u00c2bisten-i sef\u00e2 u kederdir ley\u00e2l hep
\nG\u00fcn do\u011fmadan me\u015f\u00eeme-i \u015febden neler do\u011far…’<\/strong> [4]\n

Nihayet biz, binbir girdapla pen\u00e7ele\u015fmeye dural\u0131m, neslimize g\u00fclen \u015fafaklar ufkumuzda zuhur etti. Ama yine a\u011fl\u0131yoruz; d\u00fcn bir har\u00e2bez\u00e2re, bug\u00fcn de l\u00e2lez\u00e2re [5]… A\u011fl\u0131yoruz kasvetli bulutlar\u0131n \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcne, g\u00f6z\u00fc kurumu\u015f sem\u00e2m\u0131zdan sa\u011fanak sa\u011fanak ya\u011fmur d\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcne, zeminin burcu burcu bahar koku\u015funa ve her \u015feyin yeniden dirili\u015fine… \u015eurada emekleyen civcivlere, beride formas\u0131n\u0131 takm\u0131\u015f tomurcuklara, \u00f6tede bin iniltiye, bin sanc\u0131ya…<\/p>\n

Elimizde bahardan bir demet g\u00fcl, g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz g\u00fcle \u015febnem yeti\u015ftirmekte ve ‘Asr\u0131n garipleri’ olarak, k\u0131\u015fta gelmi\u015fin kap\u0131s\u0131nda b\u00fcy\u00fck be\u015fareti m\u0131r\u0131ldan\u0131yoruz: S\u00fcmb\u00fcllerin kemer ku\u015fand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, tohumlar\u0131n ba\u015fak sald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, g\u00fcl\u00fcn gamze \u00e7akt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, b\u00fclb\u00fcl\u00fcn na\u011fme att\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ve bir nevbahar oldu\u011funu.<\/p>\n

Att\u0131\u011f\u0131n dipdiri tohumlar\u0131n, k\u0131smen soldurdu\u011fumuz \u00e7i\u00e7ekleriyle huzuruna geldikse bizi k\u0131nama! ‘Sultana sultanl\u0131k, nitekim ged\u00e2ya ged\u00e2l\u0131k yara\u015f\u0131r.’ Biz k\u00f6t\u00fc devrin r\u00fczg\u00e2r vurmu\u015f garipleri, ruh ve g\u00f6n\u00fcl hayat\u0131na eremedik ve durulamad\u0131k.<\/p>\n

‘Nazardan dur k\u0131lma bendeg\u00e2n\u0131 g\u00f6zle Sultan’\u0131m.’<\/strong><\/p>\n