Bir ak\u015fam\u00fcst\u00fc, vicdan\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n tolerans vadisinde rehavet seanslar\u0131ndayken yakalad\u0131lar bizi.<\/p>\n

Tozpembe t\u00fcller germi\u015ftik pencerelerimize\u2026<\/p>\n

D\u00fcne ve bug\u00fcne dair \u00e7\u00f6pleri istif etmi\u015ftik k\u00fcfl\u00fc bodrum katlar\u0131m\u0131zda Yar\u0131n\u0131n ek\u015fi kokulu \u201ckehanetleri\u201d zaten kitab\u0131m\u0131zda bile yoktu.. Mesaj k\u00e2\u011f\u0131d\u0131 sar\u0131l\u0131 olmayan ‘\u00e7ok k\u00f6\u015feli\u2019 ta\u015flar camlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 tuzla buz etti. Kafalar\u0131m\u0131z tavana de\u011fercesine z\u0131plad\u0131k, Korkak de\u011fildik; ama a\u00e7\u0131k\u00e7as\u0131 \u00fcrkt\u00fck sesteki bu ani ‘desibel\u2019 de\u011fi\u015fiminden… Sirenleri \u00e7almaya da gerek yoktu i\u00e7imizdeki g\u00fczelli\u011fe dair hisleri tahliye etmeye de… Ama cam\u0131 k\u0131rm\u0131\u015flard\u0131 bir kere… Oysa \u00e7o\u011fu zaman g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fck cam\u0131n \u00f6te yan\u0131ndan onlar\u0131… G\u00fcl\u00fcmseyerek bakarlard\u0131; ama di\u015flerinin \u00e7ene kemiklerini nas\u0131l emdi\u011fini de hissederdik.<\/p>\n

‘Geldik\u2019<\/em> dediler, y\u00fczlerindeki maskeyi \u00e7amurlu soka\u011f\u0131n ortas\u0131na vurarak, \u201d Beklemiyordunuz de\u011fil mi?\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n

Ger\u00e7ekten gelmi\u015flerdi.<\/p>\n

U\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 aleve bat\u0131rd\u0131klar\u0131 \u0131\u015f\u0131ndan oklar\u0131, bir ejderha \u0131sl\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi t\u0131slayarak yard\u0131 g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc\u2026 Mavinin h\u00fcz\u00fcn tonuna, alevin k\u0131zg\u0131n al\u0131n\u0131 bulayarak ilerledi \u00f6fkeden silahlar\u0131.. Sadaklar\u0131nda d\u00fc\u015fmanl\u0131k vard\u0131, kin vard\u0131, zehir vard\u0131, Kurumu\u015f g\u00fclden \u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcz kubbemize \u015fim\u015fek h\u0131z\u0131yla sapland\u0131 alevden oklar\u0131, \u00c7at\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 yakt\u0131lar… Kubbemizi \u00e7at\u0131rdatmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131lar\u2026<\/p>\n

\u00d6nce biri belirdi y\u0131landan g\u00f6zleriyle cam\u0131n hemen arkas\u0131nda. Sonra di\u011ferleri s\u00f6k\u00fcn ettiler. Sava\u015f bozgunu ya\u015fam\u0131\u015f, ap\u0131\u015f aralar\u0131 ek\u015fi ek\u015fi kokan \u00e7apulcu askerler gibi girdiler d\u00fcnyam\u0131za… Sepetlerimize bast\u0131lar tekmeyi, a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131za vurdular baltalar\u0131, \u2018yumurtalar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131\u2019<\/em><\/strong> yere \u00e7ald\u0131lar. Dipleri hayvan tersine bulanm\u0131\u015f \u00e7izmeleriyle ezdiler ‘civcivlerimizi\u2019<\/em><\/strong>. Kap\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131za \u00e7entik att\u0131lar, ekmek satan f\u0131r\u0131nc\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n un \u00e7uvallar\u0131n\u0131 m\u0131zraklad\u0131lar. Selam veren dostlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 horlad\u0131lar, ineklerimizi tekmelediler.<\/p>\n

Mavinin h\u00fcz\u00fcnl\u00fc tonuyla boyad\u0131\u011f\u0131 ak\u015fam vakti geldiler…<\/p>\n

‘Atlar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7ocuklar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n, gelece\u011fimizin \u00fczerine s\u00fcrd\u00fc’<\/em><\/strong> ler… ‘Sureka’ yoktu aralar\u0131nda, atlar\u0131 ayaklar\u0131na kadar de\u011fil, bellerine kadar girmi\u015fti batakl\u0131\u011fa. Ama g\u00f6zlerinde kinleri, a\u011f\u0131zlar\u0131nda k\u00fcf\u00fcrleri vard\u0131. En \u00e7ok da aram\u0131zda durup, dostluk t\u00fcrk\u00fcleri s\u00f6ylerken d\u00fcn, bug\u00fcn onlar\u0131n yan\u0131na ge\u00e7ip sapanlar\u0131na ‘ta\u015f’ <\/strong>koyup, \u00fczerimize sallayanlar \u015fa\u015f\u0131rtt\u0131 bizi.<\/p>\n

Gecenin karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131lar g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcne do\u011fru…<\/p>\n

Tamtam \u00e7ald\u0131lar saat ba\u015f\u0131…<\/p>\n

<\/a><\/p>\n

Y\u00fcreklere korku sal\u0131p, kitaplar\u0131 yakt\u0131rmak, an\u0131lar\u0131 sildirmek, aynalar\u0131 k\u0131rd\u0131rmakt\u0131 ama\u00e7lar\u0131…<\/p>\n

K\u0131smen ba\u015fard\u0131lar da…<\/p>\n

K\u00fcnklerini toplay\u0131p, g\u00f6\u00e7lerini haz\u0131rlay\u0131p, yola dizilen kervanlar\u0131 g\u00f6sterdiler parmaklar\u0131yla. “Bak\u0131n” <\/em>dediler, “bak\u0131n, nas\u0131l da korkuttuk arkada\u015flar\u0131n\u0131z\u0131… Onlar ki, en iyi g\u00fcnlerde t\u00fcrk\u00fclerinize e\u015flik ederlerdi.”<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n

Sular\u0131m\u0131za zehir katmak, ekme\u011fimizi k\u00fcfletmek istediler… Irma\u011f\u0131m\u0131z g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc ak\u0131yordu \u00e7ok \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr, bu\u011fdaylar\u0131m\u0131z dayan\u0131kl\u0131yd\u0131… Ba\u015faramay\u0131nca bunlar\u0131 sinirlendiler, de\u011firmencilerimize, sakalar\u0131m\u0131za hakaretler ya\u011fd\u0131rd\u0131lar… Yapraklar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 yoldular, tarlalar\u0131m\u0131za s\u00fcrd\u00fcler hayvanlar\u0131n\u0131. En mahrem odalar\u0131m\u0131za kadar sokuldular… Yast\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 i\u011fdi\u015f ettiler sivri u\u00e7lu m\u0131zraklar\u0131yla. ‘\u00c7eyiz sand\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 etrafa sa\u00e7t\u0131lar… Yazmalar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7i\u011fnediler kad\u0131nlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n…<\/p>\n

\u00c7ocuklar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 almaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131lar, analar\u0131n kucaklar\u0131ndan… Be\u011fenmedikleri her \u015feyi toplad\u0131lar cadde ortalar\u0131na .. Kitap, giysi, namus, haya, un, kurumu\u015f kabak… Hepsini \u00fcst \u00fcste y\u0131\u011fd\u0131lar… \u015earap \u015fi\u015felerinin diplerinde kalan s\u0131v\u0131lar\u0131 boca ettiler bu y\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcne… Ayd\u0131nlanmak i\u00e7in kulland\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z me\u015faleyle yakt\u0131lar birikimlerimizi…<\/p>\n

Soka\u011fa \u00e7\u0131kamad\u0131 \u00e7o\u011fumuz.<\/p>\n

Perdeleri s\u0131k\u0131, s\u0131k\u0131ya kapad\u0131k bilin\u00e7siz bir tepkisellikle…<\/p>\n

Sonra \u201dNeden ?”<\/em> sorusunu sorduk kendi kendimize:<\/p>\n

Neden?<\/p>\n

Sorular \u00e7o\u011fald\u0131k\u00e7a onlar k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcld\u00fc, onlar k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcld\u00fck\u00e7e \u0131\u015f\u0131k s\u0131zd\u0131 perdelerimizden… I\u015f\u0131k, karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc demekti… Karanl\u0131k olmay\u0131nca, onlar da olmayacaklard\u0131, bunu \u00e7ok iyi biliyorlard\u0131…<\/p>\n

Ak\u015fam batarken g\u00fcne\u015f, mavinin h\u00fcz\u00fcn tonunda gelmi\u015flerdi… K\u0131z\u0131l bir \u015fafak vakti, mele\u011fin ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131\u015f\u0131yla gitmeye ba\u015flad\u0131lar.. Arkalar\u0131nda harabeler b\u0131rakt\u0131lar. Binalar, evler, camlar, y\u00fcrekler… Tehditler savura savura kayboldular ufukta… Baz\u0131lar\u0131 \u2019pi\u015fmanl\u0131k’ belirtisi ifadeler kulland\u0131 giderken. Vicdanlar\u0131 varm\u0131\u015f gibi davrand\u0131 kimileri… Ama yapm\u0131\u015flard\u0131 bir kere, k\u0131rm\u0131\u015flard\u0131 camlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131..<\/p>\n

Korkuyu, \u015fa\u015fk\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131, \u00fcrkekli\u011fi hemen att\u0131k \u00fczerimizden… Ya\u015fl\u0131 g\u00f6zlerimizi silmeden tebess\u00fcm etmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131k hayata… Ve bir kar\u0131nca samimiyetiyle tekrar ba\u015flad\u0131k \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmaya. \u00d6rmeye ba\u015flad\u0131k bu\u011fudan a\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131. Bir ya\u011fmur ak\u0131n etti g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcnden. Kan\u0131, k\u00fcl\u00fc, \u00e7amuru ald\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc… Kirlerimizi y\u0131kad\u0131, testilerimizi doldurdu…<\/p>\n

G\u00fcne\u015f tepeye do\u011fru y\u00fckseldi \u015fehrimizin d\u0131\u015f\u0131ndan…<\/p>\n

Mutluluk \u015fark\u0131lar\u0131 y\u00fckseldi yine g\u00f6k kubbemize do\u011fru. \u0130\u015fte tam bu s\u0131rada belirdi tepede en \u2018deli \u2018olan\u0131m\u0131z..<\/p>\n

Var g\u00fcc\u00fcyle ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131:<\/p>\n

\u201cG\u00fclmeyin!”<\/em><\/p>\n

Herkes sesin geldi\u011fi y\u00f6ne y\u00f6neldi…<\/p>\n

Elindeki asas\u0131n\u0131 bulutlara do\u011frulttu, sonra bizlere do\u011fru ve bo\u015flu\u011fa savurdu;<\/p>\n

\u201c\u015eark\u0131 da s\u00f6ylemeyin !”<\/p>\n

Daha bir dikkat kesildik sesine: \u201cH\u00e2l\u00e2 anlam\u0131yorsunuz de\u011fil mi?\u201d<\/em> diye sordu ac\u0131 ifadelerle,<\/p>\n

“Gittiler san\u0131yorsunuz Oysa oradalar …”<\/p>\n

Herkes birbirine bakt\u0131 \u015fa\u015fk\u0131nca, sonra tekrar ona;<\/p>\n

\u201c\u015eunu bilin kesinlikle\u201d<\/em> dedi deli ve kan\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 donduran \u015fu c\u00fcmleyi hayk\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

“Gene gelecekler!!!”<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

(Maskeli Balon’un \u00f6ns\u00f6z\u00fc)<\/p>\n

Not:\u00a0Maskeli Balon, 1999 y\u0131l\u0131nda ba\u015flayan ve yakla\u015f\u0131k 45 g\u00fcn yo\u011funluklu olarak uygulanan bir infaz s\u00fcrecinin anatomisi \u00fczerine ortaya \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015ft\u0131.Maskeli Balon’un yazar\u0131 Ferhat Bar\u0131\u015f, 28 \u015eubat s\u00fcrecinde ya\u015fanan geli\u015fmeleri kaleme al\u0131rken, \u00fclkemizde belirli peryotlarla ger\u00e7ekle\u015fen olaylar\u0131n akt\u00f6rlerinin asl\u0131nda gitmediklerini, sadece karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fczerlerine bir yorgan gibi \u00f6rtt\u00fcklerini s\u00f6ylemi\u015fti. Bir kehanetten ziyade, sosyal doku tipine a\u015fina bir g\u00f6zlemdi bu! Ve 2008′ de ya\u015fanan olaylar
\ntekrar g\u00f6sterdi ki; yine geldiler! \u015eimdi 2016 ve yine geldiler..<\/strong><\/em><\/p><\/blockquote>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Bir ak\u015fam\u00fcst\u00fc, vicdan\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n tolerans vadisinde rehavet seanslar\u0131ndayken yakalad\u0131lar bizi. Tozpembe t\u00fcller germi\u015ftik pencerelerimize\u2026 D\u00fcne ve bug\u00fcne dair \u00e7\u00f6pleri istif etmi\u015ftik k\u00fcfl\u00fc bodrum katlar\u0131m\u0131zda Yar\u0131n\u0131n ek\u015fi kokulu \u201ckehanetleri\u201d zaten kitab\u0131m\u0131zda bile yoktu.. Mesaj k\u00e2\u011f\u0131d\u0131 sar\u0131l\u0131 olmayan ‘\u00e7ok k\u00f6\u015feli\u2019 ta\u015flar camlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 tuzla buz etti. Kafalar\u0131m\u0131z tavana de\u011fercesine z\u0131plad\u0131k, Korkak de\u011fildik; ama a\u00e7\u0131k\u00e7as\u0131 \u00fcrkt\u00fck sesteki bu ani ‘desibel\u2019 …<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":3672,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1,6],"tags":[1329,1327,1333,23,1328,273,36,420,1331,1330,1332],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.kocar.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3670"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.kocar.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.kocar.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.kocar.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.kocar.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=3670"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/www.kocar.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3670\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3673,"href":"http:\/\/www.kocar.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3670\/revisions\/3673"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.kocar.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/3672"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.kocar.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=3670"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.kocar.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=3670"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.kocar.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=3670"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}