Hazret\u2019in, bu kadar korku ve endi\u015felerinin yan\u0131nda, ciddi bir rec\u00e2 duygusuyla \u201cKeremk\u00e2n\u0131m!\u201d dedi\u011fi ve kalbinin \u00fcmit hisleriyle ritim de\u011fi\u015ftirdi\u011fi de hi\u00e7 az de\u011fildir. O b\u00f6yle davranmakla ve \u201cRahmetim gazab\u0131ma sebkat etmi\u015ftir.\u201d[1]<\/strong><\/sup><\/em>\u00fcmitbah\u015f ferman-\u0131 s\u00fcbh\u00e2n\u00eesiyle r\u00fck\u00fbdan kavmeye do\u011frulma say\u0131lan tavr\u0131yla, d\u00fc\u015fe-kalka y\u00fcr\u00fcyenlere de Hak rahmetinin v\u00fcs\u2019atini g\u00f6sterme hali sergiler. Adeta bir \u015fairimizin dedi\u011fi gibi,<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cGer g\u00fcnah\u0131m k\u00fbh-i Kaf olsa ne gam y\u00e2 Cel\u00eel<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Rahmetin bahr\u0131na nisbet \u2018Enneh\u00fb \u015fey\u2019\u00fcn kal\u00eel.\u2019\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n mazmununa g\u00f6re davran\u0131r; g\u00fcnah ve hatalar\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcne t\u00fck\u00fcrerek, \u201cDestg\u00eerim ol!\u201d<\/em>iniltileriyle \u201cRahmet, Rahmet!\u201d deyip ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 reca e\u015fi\u011fine koyar; oksijen yudumluyor gibi bir ruh haleti i\u00e7ine girer ve inler. \u0130\u015fte o soluklardan birka\u00e7 damla:<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cEy kullar\u0131 Kendisine y\u00f6neldi\u011finde hemen tevecc\u00fch-\u00fc rahmette bulunan.. hi\u00e7bir zaman onlar\u0131n \u00fcmitlerini kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131ks\u0131z b\u0131rakmayan.. onlar\u0131, Kendine yakla\u015ft\u0131ran ekstra yol ve disiplinlerle c\u00fcd\u00e2 d\u00fc\u015fme hicran\u0131ndan kurtaran.. g\u00fcnah ve mes\u00e2v\u00eeyle kirlenmi\u015f olanlar\u0131n ay\u0131plar\u0131n\u0131 setreden\u2026 y\u00fcceler y\u00fccesi Rabbim! \u00dcmitle kap\u0131na y\u00f6nelip e\u015fi\u011fine ba\u015f koyanlar\u0131 hi\u00e7bir zaman bo\u015f \u00e7evirmedi\u011fin gibi, bendeni de mel\u00fcl, mahzun y\u00fcz \u00fcst\u00fc b\u0131rakma!\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Bu \u00e2h u efg\u00e2nla reca-havf eksenli yakar\u0131\u015flarda bulunur ve haleflerine, o kap\u0131ya hiss-i rec\u00e2 ile y\u00f6nelme sinyalleri verir. Hatta b\u00fct\u00fcn b\u00fct\u00fcn mihrap sapmas\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f, y\u00f6n belirsizli\u011fiyle \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131n\u0131p duran tali\u2019sizlere dahi bir ezan sesiyle Hakk\u2019\u0131n rahmet enginli\u011fini duyurur.. onlar\u0131, duyup etti\u011fi \u015feyleri payla\u015fmaya \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131r.. onlara havf u reca terkibinden en canl\u0131 mesajlar sunarak \u201cba\u2019su ba\u2019de\u2019l-mevt\u201dten g\u00fcftelerle yeniden dirili\u015f yollar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6sterir; g\u00f6sterir ve \u0130srafil soluklar\u0131 t\u00fcr\u00fcnden nefeslerle onlar\u0131 yitirdikleri mihraba y\u00f6nlendirir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n S\u00fcr\u00fcp giden bu engin fas\u0131ldan es ge\u00e7ti\u011fim \u00e7ok noktalar oldu. Ondan ve okurlardan \u00f6z\u00fcr dileyerek, bu zebercet m\u00fclahazalara da bir nokta koyup, onun o led\u00fcnn\u00ee zenginlikli ruh anatomisine has ba\u015fka t\u00fcrden s\u0131zlan\u0131\u015flar\u0131yla, dili kalbinin g\u00fcd\u00fcm\u00fcnde, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncesi metafizik \u00e2lemler \u00f6tesinde, s\u0131rr\u0131 \u00f6teler \u00f6tesi n\u00e2k\u00e2bil-i idrak zirvelerde, g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131 ceyhun, melek \u00e2v\u00e2zl\u0131 na\u011fmelerinden de birka\u00e7 demet -\u00e7o\u011fumuz bir \u015fey anlamasak da- hayatbah\u015f baz\u0131 hususlar\u0131 arz etmek istiyorum. \u0130\u015fte, mazmun y\u00f6r\u00fcngeli ruh destan\u0131 o m\u00fclahazalardan birka\u00e7 soluk:<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cAllah\u2019\u0131m! Az\u0131ks\u0131z\u0131m ama Sana olan tevekk\u00fcl ve teslimim tamd\u0131r. Buna ra\u011fmen c\u00fcr\u00fcmlerimin s\u0131n\u0131rs\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcnce, tir tir titriyor ve azab\u0131na maruz kalaca\u011f\u0131m korkusuna kap\u0131l\u0131yorum. Vak\u0131a rahmetinin v\u00fcs\u2019ati g\u00f6z\u00fcmde t\u00fcllenince de g\u00f6nl\u00fcm emn \u00fc em\u00e2n hissiyle \u015fahlan\u0131yor. \u0130\u015fte, o ruh haleti i\u00e7inde bulundu\u011fumda g\u00fcnahlar\u0131m su-i \u00e2k\u0131betle inletse de aff\u0131na olan \u00fcmidim ruhuma ba\u011f\u0131\u015flanabilme sinyalleri sal\u0131veriyor.\u201d <\/em>-Bu ne mukarrebce bir denge!.. Bu ne derin bir havf u reca izdivac\u0131!- \u201cHuzur-\u0131 kibriy\u00e2na eli bo\u015f varsam da l\u00fctf u kerem enginli\u011fi m\u00fclahazas\u0131 \u015fahland\u0131r\u0131yor bendeni ve g\u00f6zlerim re\u2019fetinin varidat vaadiyle p\u00e2r p\u00e2r par\u0131ldamaya duruyor. \u00d6yle ki, isyanlarla m\u00e2lem\u00e2l oldu\u011fum ayn\u0131 anda, g\u00f6nl\u00fcm ekstra gufran s\u00fcrprizleri ve \u00fcns esintileriyle i\u00e7 i\u00e7e ritim de\u011fi\u015fiklikleri sergilemeye ba\u015fl\u0131yor\u2026 Huzurunday\u0131m ey Rab! Sal\u0131yorum kendimi rahmetinin \u00e7a\u011flayanlar\u0131na.. ve uzakla\u015fabildi\u011fim kadar kendimden uzakla\u015f\u0131yor, b\u00fct\u00fcn benli\u011fimle Sana y\u00f6neliyorum!..\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Havf hissi, reca iz\u2019\u00e2n\u0131yla, Hak\u2019la m\u00fcnasebeti ad\u0131na kendini konumland\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerin hakk\u0131n\u0131 eda edememi\u015f olma tavr\u0131yla o y\u00fcksek \u201cakrab\u00fc\u2019l-mukarrab\u00een\u201d k\u00e2met-i b\u00e2l\u00e2 y\u00f6r\u00fcnge de\u011fi\u015ftirerek, adeta, \u201cUbudiyet, netice-i nimet-i sab\u0131kad\u0131r.\u201d <\/em>d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncesiyle ilah\u00ee l\u00fctuflar sa\u011fana\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bir kere daha nazara alarak \u015f\u00fck\u00fcrle g\u00fcrlemeye duruyor.. ve \u015f\u00fckran kap\u0131s\u0131 e\u015fi\u011fine y\u00fcz s\u00fcrerek, Hakk\u2019\u0131n \u201cl\u00e2y\u00fc\u2019ad ve lay\u00fchs\u00e2\u201d nimetlerine mukabil dil-dudak lat\u00eefe-i rabb\u00e2niyenin emrinde, hamd \u00fc sen\u00e2 na\u011fmeleriyle g\u00fcrl\u00fcyor:<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cAllah\u2019\u0131m! Pe\u015fi pe\u015fine sa\u011fanak sa\u011fanak idrak ufkumun \u00fczerine bo\u015falan o engin elt\u00e2f\u0131na ne diyece\u011fimi bilemiyorum.. fazl u kerem kaynakl\u0131 Senin ut\u00fbfe-i s\u00fcbh\u00e2niyen kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda dilim tutuluyor ve diyeceklerimi diyemez h\u00e2le geliyorum. Senin \u00e7a\u011flayanlar gibi ak\u0131p gelen, liy\u00e2katimi \u00e7ok \u00e7ok a\u015fk\u0131n \u00f6zel l\u00fctuflar\u0131n\u0131<\/em>\u0648\u064e\u0625\u0650\u0646\u0652 \u062a\u064e\u0639\u064f\u062f\u064f\u0651\u0648\u0627\u0652 \u0646\u0650\u0639\u0652\u0645\u064e\u0629\u064e \u0627\u0644\u0644\u0651\u0647\u0650 \u0644\u064e\u0627 \u062a\u064f\u062d\u0652\u0635\u064f\u0648\u0647\u064e\u0627\u201cSaymaya kalksan\u0131z sayamazs\u0131n\u0131z ilahi nimetleri!\u201d (\u0130brahim s<\/em>\u00fb<\/em>resi, 14\/34; Nahl s<\/em>\u00fb<\/em>resi, 16\/18) adesesiyle tema\u015faya ald\u0131\u011f\u0131mda bir \u015fey diyememe acziyle k\u0131r\u0131l\u0131yor kolum-kanad\u0131m ve iki b\u00fckl\u00fcm oluyorum\u2026 Evet, Senin o hususi at\u0131yyelerin kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda hamd \u00fc sen\u00e2m\u0131n yetersizli\u011fiyle i\u00e7 i\u00e7e hicaplar ya\u015f\u0131yorum. \u0130manla ger\u00e7ek dirili\u015fe eri\u015fim.. \u0130sl<\/em>\u00e2<\/em>m\u2019la dergah-\u0131 s\u00fcbh\u00e2niyene y\u00f6neli\u015fim.. boynumda kulluk tasmas\u0131, ba\u015f\u0131m kerem ve ikram e\u015fi\u011finde.. elim re\u2019fet ve ut\u00fbfet kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n tokma\u011f\u0131nda, <\/em>\u0643\u064f\u0644\u064c\u0651 \u0645\u0650\u0646\u0652 \u0639\u0650\u0646\u0652\u062f\u0650 \u0627\u0644\u0644\u0647\u0650 \u201cBunlar\u0131n hepsi Senden.\u201d diyor, \u015f\u00fck\u00fcrle gerilime ge\u00e7iyorum. Ne var ki Sana kar\u015f\u0131 bu \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr hissi de yine Senden. Zira ne zaman Sana \u015f\u00fckretsem bu da Senin ayr\u0131 bir l\u00fctfun olmas\u0131 itibar\u0131yla -\u015f\u00fck\u00fcrler s\u00e2lih dairesiyle- Sana hi\u00e7bir zaman hamd \u00fc senam\u0131 tamam olarak yerine getiremeyece\u011fim.\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Ke\u015fke biz de bu mazhariyetlerin fark\u0131nda olarak hayat\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 hep bu \u00e7izgide s\u00fcrd\u00fcrebilseydik!.. Tamam\u0131n\u0131 idrakten \u00e2ciz olsak da, verdiklerini, vereceklerinin emaresi kabul edip b\u00fct\u00fcn f\u00e2niy\u00e2t u z\u00e2il\u00e2ta bedel, ebedleri peyleme yoluna girerek, \u201czat\u0131na bakan y\u00f6n\u00fcyle cife, arkas\u0131ndan ko\u015fturanlar da kil\u00e2b\u201d \u015fu d\u00fcnya-i f\u00e2niyeye g\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc kapt\u0131rmadan, makam-mans\u0131p, \u015fan-\u015f\u00f6hret, servet-saman, beden\u00ee ve cisman\u00ee arzulara bir par\u00e7a s\u0131rt\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 d\u00f6n\u00fcp her zaman o g\u00fcne\u015fler g\u00fcne\u015fine kar\u015f\u0131 sekmeden y\u00fcr\u00fcyebilseydik!.. Heyhat! Aldand\u0131k bu yalanc\u0131 d\u00fcnyan\u0131n c\u00e2zibed\u00e2r g\u00fczelliklerine!.. Tevehh\u00fcm-\u00fc ebediyetlerle t\u00fbl-i emellere tak\u0131ld\u0131k, kazanma ku\u015fa\u011f\u0131nda neleri ve neleri kaybettik!.. Ne ho\u015f s\u00f6yler \u00c7a\u011f\u0131n S\u00f6zc\u00fcs\u00fc: \u201cEyvah aldand\u0131k; bu hayat-\u0131 d\u00fcnyeviyeyi s\u00e2bit zannettik; o zan sebebiyle -biz her \u015feyi- b\u00fct\u00fcn b\u00fct\u00fcn zayi ettik.. evet, \u015fu g\u00fczer\u00e2n-\u0131 hayat bir uykudur, bir r\u00fcya gibi ge\u00e7ti.. \u015fu temelsiz \u00f6m\u00fcr dahi \u00e7ay gibi akar gider.\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Ama ne ac\u0131d\u0131r ki, b\u00fcy\u00fck \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcde bu b\u00e2z\u00ee\u00e7ede aldand\u0131k ve ebedleri kaybetme pahas\u0131na \u015fu fett\u00e2n ve vefas\u0131z d\u00fcnyan\u0131n s\u00fbr\u00ee g\u00fczelliklerine tak\u0131larak ebedi \u00e2lemleri b\u00fct\u00fcn b\u00fct\u00fcn nisyanlara g\u00f6md\u00fck ve gelece\u011fimizi karartt\u0131k. \u00d6yle ki ne ilah\u00ee at\u0131yye ve behiyyelerin \u015f\u00fckr\u00fcn\u00fc tam eda edebildik, ne de onlarla peylenebilecek o ger\u00e7ek yar\u0131nlar\u0131n ayn-\u0131 hayat oldu\u011funu kavrayabildik. Ziya Pa\u015fa soluklar\u0131yla ifade edecek olursak:<\/p>\n\n\n\n \u201cEyvah bu b\u00e2z\u00ee\u00e7ede bizler yine yand\u0131k!<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Zira ki ziyan ortada, bilmem ne kazand\u0131k!..\u201d<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Asl\u0131nda kazanmam\u0131z da m\u00fcmk\u00fcn de\u011fildi; zira hi\u00e7 \u00f6lmeyecek gibi kendimizi hev\u00e2\u00eeli\u011fe salarak d\u00fcnya mezraas\u0131n\u0131 kupkuru \u00e7\u00f6le \u00e7evirdik ve ebediyetlere uzanan d\u00fcnya g\u00fczerg\u00e2h\u0131ndaki k\u00f6pr\u00fcleri de bir bir y\u0131karak \u00f6teler inan\u00e7 ve d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncesine bir s\u00fcnger \u00e7ektik. Bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc kendimize gelerek y\u00fcrekler ac\u0131s\u0131 halimize bak\u0131p Allah\u2019a y\u00f6nelmedik\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n[1]Buh\u00e2r\u00ee,tevhid<\/em>22; M\u00fcslim,\u00a0tevbe<\/em>15.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Yazar: Fethullah G\u00fclen<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" KEND\u0130LER\u0130YLE Y\u00dcZLE\u015eMEDE H\u00c2LE \u0130LE H\u00c2LLENENLER (3) Hazret\u2019in, bu kadar korku ve endi\u015felerinin yan\u0131nda, ciddi bir rec\u00e2 duygusuyla \u201cKeremk\u00e2n\u0131m!\u201d dedi\u011fi ve kalbinin \u00fcmit hisleriyle ritim de\u011fi\u015ftirdi\u011fi de hi\u00e7 az de\u011fildir. O b\u00f6yle davranmakla ve \u201cRahmetim gazab\u0131ma sebkat etmi\u015ftir.\u201d[1]\u00fcmitbah\u015f ferman-\u0131 s\u00fcbh\u00e2n\u00eesiyle r\u00fck\u00fbdan kavmeye do\u011frulma say\u0131lan tavr\u0131yla, d\u00fc\u015fe-kalka y\u00fcr\u00fcyenlere de Hak rahmetinin v\u00fcs\u2019atini g\u00f6sterme hali sergiler. 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